当leader不是你级比较高，而是你的responsibility must be higher， 要更多。要有担当。
不是我要骂你们。只是，我希望你们可以再往上爬而不是往下。
What I keep on reminding you, maybe you will keep it inside your heart. You also know, we need to improve ourselves.

我的脾气不好，有时候我真的累了。我很想在training 的时候，看到什么就骂，不管你们的心情。 就只因为我累了。
During the first training, I really really hope to win in the fdc. When I saw you all attending the training during the holidays, I'm really very happy. Because there are people who are willing to spend their time to fulfill our dream of winning. maybe because it's the third year im participating, and we didnt win anything in the past few years, i think it's the hope of me wanting to win is stronger than before.
in the past years training, so what if i put in my best to train, so what. if a few of them dont come for training, our whole squad is ruin. sometimes, i really wonder why am i training so hard when others 更本就不管。
put in my best, but in the end i gain nothing but my skin condition get worse.
just like what some of us are thinking, why are we training so hard when other just hack care. I have the same question and feeling. but i wont say it out. i keep on saying as long as the ppl here are good others who join in later will be ok. the truth is, i dont even know will they come or not. just because i dont want to let the spirit of the squad to be down, i said that.

sometime, i really want to just walk out and totally dont care about it. spend too much time on rcy and then my result drop from level 8 to level 16. someone say i need to have time management. i tell you, at that point of time, i heard that i need to have time management from that person mouth, i want to tear his mouth apart. time management? you mean we can still "geng" the whole rcy with just TWO NCO?
i really wonder where is the other FOUR NCOS. 我还在想他们在假期的时候都死到哪里去了。
when i need help to do the stupid performance, only amira is there. luckily, jiayi is there to help too. otherwise i will on the spot 口吐白沫。a sec 2 is useful than some of the other.



I realise that my eq very bad, because im fierce, i scold ppl. but what can i do, when the other nco dont care when the conduct and the attitude of the cadet is bad. their attitude towards the senior is rude, they dont care. i dont want the disciplinary level to drop.

i end up become the only nco who scold ppl.
the only one who is being hated by the others. '
do you all even know that ,
during the rcy camp, all of your reaction that is so 一至nearly cause me to cry. 我忍下来了。你们知不知道，你们的行为让我好难受。nobody will want to be hated, just because i wanted to maintain that level, you all hate me. 真的不好受。真的。 但是，我却认为你们会谅解我的。不过，我好像错了。


有时我想想，为什么我要那样的拚。




有时候真的累了。 很想什么都不管，把它踢开。但是，我知道不可以，because you all voted me to be one of the nco.
thus, i wont give up the hope of winning, i hope you all will be same as me. dont ever try to give up.

maybe you try but you failed, but if you dont even want to try you will forever be doom.